I love who I have become by loving you

​No greater love than this… to lay down your life for another.

My dearest love, 

What a privilege to pursue the greatest of love and having you as my motivation.
How incredibly blessed I am, to delve into the depth of my human ability to love, and you are my inspiration.

I am so thankful to God that I have you in my heart, on my mind and consistently before me. 
To have chosen you was the clearest, most obvious commitment I have ever made.
It had the most excruciating, yet gloriously unprecedented consequences.

The price I am paying and had to pay, I will pay again, and so much more, because I know my every tear waters your desert, my every prayer, awakens your hope. 

What I had to sacrifice and even the dreams I had to lay at our Father’s feet, I will lay it down again and again and again, because I know the quality of the One that I admire and the One that I aspire to be like. 

If I knew what I had to go through in my prodigious journey in loving you, would I do it again? 
A thousand times yes! A life-long definitely! 

Even if it was just for the innumerable times my face spontaneously erupted into a smile, when I thought of you. 

Even if it was just for the moments of uncontainable joy, when I was exhuberantly jumping up and down, like a child, alone in my room.

Or the times praise just flowed from my lips toward our God as my heart could not contain my thankfulness and awe for the story He has allowed me to be a part of.

Or even if it was just for those times where my desperation in prayer has reached such a physically aching dimension, that I thought I can’t live through another day and death will be the only release from the pain… because there I met God in a powerful, breathtaking way that I would not trade for any other version of my life.

If I could meet God like this again, I won’t trade it for any easier way. 

I love that I can love you.
I love who I have become by loving you.
I love the God I discovered by loving you.

Thank you for this journey… I hope yours is easier than mine, when it comes to us, since you really have enough to deal with in your circumstances. And that as I help carry your burdens that you will find rest for your soul, hope for your future, and deep, deep intimacy with our Father.

Thank you, my love. I know that hope is alive in us and for us. And I am so thankful that the story has not ended yet. 
You are making my life so incredibly rich, intensely deep and majestically beautiful. 

It is so worth loving you.

 Always yours…



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