Oneloveline 9

It is love that makes God powerful. He is powerful because He is Love. It is love that makes God beautiful. He is beautiful because He is Love…



I wish you could see you

13 August 2017

My beautiful love,

I love what God thinks about you
And I love that I know it’s true.

I love that I can see how much God believes in you and I love that I can believe in you too.

I love to see how much God loves you and I love that I can love you too.

I love that God is with you and I love that I am with you too.

I know God sees things you can’t see, and I hope you will start to see it too.

I know God has faith in you, that you don’t have in yourself, and I hope that his faith will arise in you.

And as for me, I am thankful, humbled, overwhelmed and deeply moved at the fact that I am so privileged to love you.

I wish you could see who the one is that I love.
I wish you could see you.

I would love to be wrong

​My endless love,

This morning I saw a new photo of yourself that you put on facebook… And my heart was flooded again of how deep my love is for you.

Although to a couple of my friends, I have actually out loud verbalized that I don’t think we are going to get together, and in my mind, I know that I honestly can’t see it happen anymore. I would love to be wrong… If there was ever a time in my life that I hope I am wrong, it is now… in this season. I really hope I am wrong… because this I know:

It is not wrong to love you and it is not wrong to deeply care about you. I know that it is not wrong to bring you daily before the throne of grace, interceding for mostly, your inner self… I know it is not wrong to pray that God will heal your heart , meet with you in a powerful way, restore your identity in him and flood you with the dreams that he has for your life. I know that this is not wrong. 

I know that it is not wrong to wish for you freedom in your innermost being. I know that it is not wrong to dream for you a road of breakthrough and victory and success. I know it is not wrong…

And, I know, deep in my heart, that I was not wrong when you said you love me and I felt you sincerely meant it. I really believe I was not wrong when you would look at me in a way that I can not even put into words… I know I was not wrong. I know I was not wrong when you said that only Father will be able to do this. I know I was not wrong… 

I know that I am not wrong when I fully saw God’s involvement in this from the start. I know I could not possibly interpret things inaccurately, just because of the amount of guidance and confirmation I received. I know I was not wrong.

And I know that I am not wrong now, when I tell you that I still love you after all this time. I know that I am not wrong if I say that you are still the one my heart is longing for. I know that I am not wrong when I say that there is no getting over you. I know that I am not wrong if I say that I will love you for the rest of my life. I know I am not wrong.

But I really hope that I am wrong when I have these thoughts that it is over. And I really hope that I am wrong, when I think that maybe you do not care anymore. I really hope I am wrong. 

So I pray for you. 

I pray that the perfect heart of God, with all the fullness of His love, all the overflow of destiny, purpose and blessing will flood your being, overwhelm your soul, and liberate your heart and mind. 

I pray that the Prince of peace will fully rule in your mind, soul and body. 

I pray that every beautiful detail, all specifics and every thought God has about you will truly become your reality. I pray that you will walk in the good, pleasing and perfect will of God and that your being will align with what God spoke, when He created you.

I pray that the lovely companionship of the Holy Spirit will be with you, that His fragrance will rest upon you, His power will move through you and His truth will keep on setting you free. 

I pray that the flawless price of the cross will have its full effect in your life, in your family’s lives and in your people. 

I pray that the adoration God has for you, the faith He has in you and the fierce love He uniquely shares towards you will captivate you and become the foundation from where you function in this world.

And if my life can have any form of impact on you, it would be this:
That my prayers will cause heaven to come down on you, that my prayers will cause a myriad of angels to serve you, protect you and fight for you, that the inner turmoil of your soul will be soothed and quieted by the prayers of love, healing and freedom that I request from God concerning for you. 

Of course I would love to touch you, but my prayers are touching a part of you that is eternal, and that is incredible!

Of course I would love to hold you, but my prayers are covering you and blocking off the arrows of the enemy, and this is powerful!

Of course I would love to comfort you, but my prayers are sending the Comforter to you, and He can do a far more and deeper soothing, than I can ever dream of, and this is a privilege!

Of course I would love to have endless, deep conversations with you, but my endless conversations with God about you is having a far more significant effect on you, than my company for you could ever produce. And that is love!

I love you with soaring freedom and endless vastness.
Always yours


I love you graciously enough to let you go

5 August 2017

​My dearest love,

It is in silence that love is tested

It is with distance that love is purified

It is with challenges that love is made stronger

It is with the impossible that love’s true power is revealed

It is with the passing of time that love grows 

We have faced all of the above, months of silence, 1000’s of kilometres of distance

Unbelievable challenges, all impossible odds…. and a very very long time.

Yet, I still call you my Beloved, because you are

I still smile when I see a photo of you, I can’t help it

I still hope, even though it seems hopeless

I still pray, even if it seems over

I love you, my beautiful man

I love you graciously enough to set you free

But deeply enough to wish you to stay
I love you, I do…

What if?


Last night I watched this video clip of What if?

And I want to write the same to you today…

May love, what if it is possible? What if there will be breakthrough and we will be able to be together?
What if we were meant to be together and this is really the will of God and heaven is orchestrating our relationship and when exactly we are going to get together?
What if what we felt and shared with one another there was really real?
What if there is something like true love and we were so lucky and blessed to experience it toward one another? What if there is a way for us to be together?
What if God will really make a way where there seem to be no way?
What if God will supernaturally keep on guiding us and putting things in place for us to be together?

What if?

What if your life is not over but your life is still worth living, still worth exploring, still worth dreaming…. what if?
What if the plans God has for you really are plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future?

What if God is really able to heal and restore your body completely? What if we are going to miraculously have our own children, apart from the ones we will adopt?
What if?

What if God is really good?
What if God really does miracles? What if God is really for you and not against you?
What if God really will work our everything for the good because you love him?
What if God’s promises are reliable and trustworthy?
What if?

What if the plans God has for you is really far above what you can dream or imagine?
What if, my love?
What if we can keep on hoping? What if we can keep on dreaming? What if we can keep on trusting the God for miracles?
What if, my love, what if?

Well, as I write this, my heart comes alive, my heart soars, my heart explodes with expectation and hope!

What if everything is really hopeless and there is no way out or no way we will ever be together? What if you are really doomed by your circumstances and you will never be able to break free from the bondages that you find yourself in?
What if your life really is over and God does not actually have a plan?

What if what we experienced was not real and God is not in this?

Well, as I write this my heart cringes and it feels like I am writing a lie because it is.It is a lie.

I know the heart of God, I know the quality life that God has for each one of us. I know the dreams he has for our lives are really far above what we can dream or imagine.

My goodness, it is so good to know that I have been set free by the truth. I just can’t see the hopelessness because I see Jesus.

My dearest love,

This is really all that I wish for you to see: the goodness of God, the love of God, the depth of God, the desire of the heart of God, who you are in him, who he called you to be. What his plans are for your life.

My love, if I am not part of that in your heart, then it is really okay because far above my desire to love you, be with you and to be loved by you, is my desire for you to have a life of God encounter and a life where you know Him deeply and walk with Him daily.

That is the depth of what I desire for you.

SEE God, see yourself.

But again, out of the abundance of my heart,can I just tell you how much I love you and what I think of you?

I love you in a way that I still need to figure out what to do with it. I love you from the abundance of who I am and though I lack description I love you with everything and all angles and continually and fully, for eternity and then always after that still.

My heart is warm, full, aware, inlove. I am yours and will always be. I will love you to the fullest capacity that can be birthed in me and I will love you like this always.
You are my one true love, what if I am yours too? I deeply adore you, my sweet man. I deeply love you.

Always yours


I do not love you more…

I wrote this 22 July 2016

My dearest love,

Today you are on my heart, like you are on my heart everyday… Today I think about you like I think about you every day. And today I want to write a letter to you, not from my logic, circumstances or facts… I want to write a letter to you from my heart and from a place of my lack of understanding in how all of this works…

This morning my one friend told me that last night he had a dream that I was talking to you over the phone in your language. Apparently I started off in English and asked you how you were doing and then I switched over to your language and he could not understand anymore what I was saying. He said that it looked like it was very nice for me to speak to you… And wow… I just imagined how it would be to phone you and speak to you in a language that we both can understand.

So, I don’t know if it was this that stirred my desire to communicate with you again, but all I know is, that I miss you and desire communication with you, more than you can imagine.

The only thing that is constant, real, deep and forever, is my love for you. I can try and get angry, try and feel despondent, try and push you away and remove you from my heart, but I can’t.

I love you really, I love you completely, I love you. And in this season when it is actually possible to see you again, I really don’t know what to make of it. I don’t know how it will be to see you again, if you even want to see me again. I would love to see you. 

I would love to see you every day for the rest of my life, or even for a moment, a second, a day- that will also be enough.

 I just want to see your eyes again. I just want to see what is in your heart. I just want you to see what is in my heart for you and how much I love you. How deep and constant and real and forever my love is for you.

I am looking forward to eternity because I will have eternity to show you how much I love you. I am looking forward to every morning when I wake up because I know that it is one day closer to the day that I will see you again, even if I might never see you on earth, I know it is one day closer to eternity when I will see you again.

But, my love, I really hope and believe that I will see you again. That I will hold you again, that I will feel your hand in mine again, that you will hold me again in a long embrace, that you will kiss my cheek… I miss you… 

I miss to see your quality…

I want to be by your side and fight and work and be in the Kingdom of God. I want to stand with you through every trial, every victory, every beautiful moment and every day for as long as we both shall live.  And then, I want to still see you for eternity in heaven with our DAD and best friend, Jesus.

My love, you are constantly before me. I would see someone that sort of look like you and I would imagine what it would be like to see you again.

You have changed my whole life, my whole being, my whole outlook on life and I love you for it.

I am overwhelmed this very moment, with the passionate love that I feel for you. It burns, it’s alive, it is real, it is in me, it is around me , it is beyond me. I have a constant companion, and this companion is love for you.

I love you with my pain, my joy, my disbelief, my hopes, my heart and my being.

I love you

Man of God, find God’s heart, more than anything else, desire intimacy with Him, more than anything else.  Be obedient to His voice more than to any other voice and know that I believe that God’s perfect will will be done. No doubt about it.

Father’s faithfulness is everlasting and he knows what he desires for both you and me and what our destinies are. I love you constantly and forever.

May God’s will be done, not mine, and not yours. Eventhough this is how I feel, I don’t want any of this if it is not God’s will…

So, I don’t love you more than obedience to Christ

I don’t love you more than doing the will of God

I don’t love you more than my love for God and my intimacy with Him

I don’t want you more than what I want to know God, experience God and discover who He is.

I don’t desire you more than I desire my First love, my Jesus, my Father, my Holy Spirit.

There’s not place for you in my heart and life in the same way that there is place for my God in my life.

But you are my second love, you are my next desire and you are my deepest human love…

And you have the next most significant place in my heart.  I love you.

You are my impossible that I believe will become possible

You are my dream that I believe will become reality

You are my highest hope, my craziest aim and my deepest desire, apart from my awesome God.

I love you and I will continue loving you and continue praying for you and continue longing for you and continue believing that God will make a way for us, if it is his will.

Did I say I love you?

I love you.

Always yours